So many people ask me how I stay on track and not go back to my anorexic ways. Well, it's hard, very hard. It's an everyday struggle. I admit, sometimes I still count calories, look at how much fat is in something, even if it's healthy, I get really obsessive. I hate counting calories, back in the day when I was sick, I spent 75% of my day counting calories. I even had a notepad where I wrote them all down. It really scares me now when I notice myself starting to count calories. I have to stop myself very quickly.
I sometimes will eat a meal. a healthy but filling meal, and think afterwards, "that must have been a lot of fat and calories because I'm so full, I'm not going to eat much tomorrow, maybe just 300 calories". When I start thinking like that I really freak out. I learned so much in treatment though. How to control those thoughts. It seems to work for the most part. I still have counselling, twice a week. I also have a great support system with my family and friends. My parents learned so much about anorexia through counselling of their own, and they are always there when I need them. So yes, every day is a struggle, I'm determined to keep eating healthy and to not relapse. Reading all your wonderful, inspirational blogs also helps me. I've gotten great advice, many wonderful recipes :)
So this morning i was up bright and early at 7am! I went to bed super early. I wanted to get up early so I could get an earlier workout in. I went to the gym and did 45 mins on the elliptical and only 20 mins on the treadmill. I find when I use the elliptical and treadmill, it doesn't bother my shin splints at all. I guess because the surface is softer? I then came home and attempted level 2 of the Shred. My leg sill wont allow the cardio part so I just did the abs and the strength for now :) I may start swimming at the pool 3 days a week. It's so close to where I live, and swimming is awesome exercise! For Breakfast I had cereal..I have been on a cereal kick.natures path cereals. I swear I buy a new one every week. I tried the Ezekial cereal yesterday and it was just alright. So today I opened a box of Natures path Mesa Sunrise. It was really, really good. I also love Spelt Flakes. Can anyone recommend another good cereal? Preferably not a granola cereal. Thanks! I have tried looking everywhere for Kashi's heart to Heart cereal and cannot seem to find it!
After my workout, i had a green smoothie. these are so delicious. I swear, you cannot even remotely taste the spinach! I will be getting my camera back very shortly and then I will take lotsa pics! All I have now is my camera phone, which usually doesn't take the best pic. I'm off now to the mall to do a little shopping with a few friends..here's a pic of me from like 20 mins ago with my camera phone..ha ha. When I feel good about myself and I'm happy, I like to snap happy shots of myself.Prior to this year I don't have many of them. Have a great day!! xoxoxoxoox
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