Sunday, June 28, 2009

Happy Sunny Sunday!!

So many people ask me how I stay on track and not go back to my anorexic ways. Well, it's hard, very hard. It's an everyday struggle. I admit, sometimes I still count calories, look at how much fat is in something, even if it's healthy, I get really obsessive. I hate counting calories, back in the day when I was sick, I spent 75% of my day counting calories. I even had a notepad where I wrote them all down. It really scares me now when I notice myself starting to count calories. I have to stop myself very quickly.

I sometimes will eat a meal. a healthy but filling meal, and think afterwards, "that must have been a lot of fat and calories because I'm so full, I'm not going to eat much tomorrow, maybe just 300 calories". When I start thinking like that I really freak out. I learned so much in treatment though. How to control those thoughts. It seems to work for the most part. I still have counselling, twice a week. I also have a great support system with my family and friends. My parents learned so much about anorexia through counselling of their own, and they are always there when I need them. So yes, every day is a struggle, I'm determined to keep eating healthy and to not relapse. Reading all your wonderful, inspirational blogs also helps me. I've gotten great advice, many wonderful recipes :)

So this morning i was up bright and early at 7am! I went to bed super early. I wanted to get up early so I could get an earlier workout in. I went to the gym and did 45 mins on the elliptical and only 20 mins on the treadmill. I find when I use the elliptical and treadmill, it doesn't bother my shin splints at all. I guess because the surface is softer? I then came home and attempted level 2 of the Shred. My leg sill wont allow the cardio part so I just did the abs and the strength for now :) I may start swimming at the pool 3 days a week. It's so close to where I live, and swimming is awesome exercise! For Breakfast I had cereal..I have been on a cereal kick.natures path cereals. I swear I buy a new one every week. I tried the Ezekial cereal yesterday and it was just alright. So today I opened a box of Natures path Mesa Sunrise. It was really, really good. I also love Spelt Flakes. Can anyone recommend another good cereal? Preferably not a granola cereal. Thanks! I have tried looking everywhere for Kashi's heart to Heart cereal and cannot seem to find it!

After my workout, i had a green smoothie. these are so delicious. I swear, you cannot even remotely taste the spinach! I will be getting my camera back very shortly and then I will take lotsa pics! All I have now is my camera phone, which usually doesn't take the best pic. I'm off now to the mall to do a little shopping with a few's a pic of me from like 20 mins ago with my camera phone..ha ha. When I feel good about myself and I'm happy, I like to snap happy shots of myself.Prior to this year I don't have many of them. Have a great day!! xoxoxoxoox

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Anonymous said...

I totally agree that ED are something that will follow you throughout your life and something that you have to stay on top of! However, a recovered life is SOOOO worth that battle! :)

Hmm... that's odd that you can't find Kashi H2H. Even Walmart usually carries it! If you still are having trouble finding it, let me know, and we'll have to do a little blogger swap! :)

Cereals: Well, Kashi H2H is my all-time favorite, but I also like Kashi cinnamon Harvest and Kashi Vanilla Island (both shredded wheat biscuit cereals), Quaker Cinnamon Oatmeal Squares, and Nature's Path Optimum Slim if you haven't tried it yet!


nicoleishappy said...

sounds like you are doing great! and just think if you got this far you can make it all go away. even if it takes a while i have a feeling you will fully recover from ed habits. :)

btw you look soo happy and pretty in your picture. love the hair!
have a great day pretty girl

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