Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Tired but Wired

I had another super long day at work. Tomorrow is only a 4 hour day thank god! I got home to get my mail and my cell phone bill was in there, $398!!! I can't believe it! No way it should be that much! ha ha. I have to call them in the morning when I have more energy. I had the most amazing veggie burger for dinner at this vegetarian restaurant here this evening. It had Avocado, hummus, a spicy red pepper sauce and tons of lettuce, tomatoes and also some alfalfa sprouts! It was honestly the best veg burger I have ever had! I got absolutely NO exercise in today..but tomorrow I am hitting up the gym! very excited. And HEATHER!!! I found Synergy!! I only got one bottle, Superfruits, like you recommended, I LOVE IT!! I am going to get more this weekend for sure. So delicious. My boyfriend tried a sip and almost gagged! he does not like anything remotely healthy! ha ha.

I also have my counselling appointment tomorrow, lately my old habits have slowly, but surely been creeping up on me. It scares me hen this happens because I do NOT want to relapse again. I honestly don't think I could do it again. I love this feeling of being healthy, but I don't always feel so strong. I sometimes find myself counting calories and fat. I used to have journals, where I would write don every single calorie and gram of fat I was putting into my body, I seriously have like 20 of these, full. Also in them were how many calories I burned each day and what exercises I was doing and so on. When I think back on it, it's quite scary and sad. I need to continue on this path to healthiness. I used to see food as the enemy, now I try my hardest to see it as fuel. Sorry for the ranting!! ha ha.

Anyhoo, Off to work in the am for fou hours..gym time after!!

Heather..good luck on your surgery tomorrow!! we will all be thinking of you and can't wait to have you back !!!!! xoxoxo


Jenny said...

HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS<--- as many as you need!!! I hope therapy helps today for you! trying to identify before anything goes to far with past Ed behaviors is important. Stay strong and focused on where you want to be with health and freedom!! :)

Anonymous said...

HAHA! Omg, that's the EXACT reaction my dad had to the Synergy the first time he tried it... he honestly spit it out on the kitchen floor. But I'm totally with you, they are SO good!!! Definitely a different flavor, but nonetheless delicious AND healthy! Glad you liked. :)

Awww, I'm sorry things are a little stressful for you right now. Just remember how wonderful this recovered life is and how much you are gaining mentally AND physically by staying strong and staying healthy. ED is never a life you want to deal with again!!! You are above and beyond that. Stay strong hun and you know where to find me if you ever need a little support! :)

Thanks so much for that beautiful shout out! You know how much it means to me!!!


nicoleishappy said...

as jenny i am giving you many hugs. Its great you are seeing that you are thinking like that and need to do something, that shows that you are so srong and you can beat ED. Just talk it all out in therapy have a great day girl!

Marina said...

God I HATE IT when I get outrageous bills like that. It's like these companies deliberately make these "mistakes" because they're hoping you don't notice, so they can overcharge you. >:(

I have a ton of food journals too. I used to obsess over every calorie, and beat myself up for eating. I could cry when I look over some of them. It's actually really sad how little I used to eat. :(

Danica's Daily said...

That veggie burger sounds fantastic!

Thanks for adding me to your blog roll :)

Good luck in the Annie's contest!

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